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Evermore

by Homesafe

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1.
Headache 03:04
I have a headache but it's more than just a pain. It's something I feel will never go away. But if I take this needle to my skull it would pop like a balloon and let the pressure dissipate into the wind. Will I ever win? I think not. Yeah, this headache is way more than it seems- not the obvious surface signs or the blood rush to my brain that I pick. Cause I'll never win. I know it. I have a headache but it's more than just a pain.
2.
Guts 03:57
It started with the sun peering through my bedroom window- shining on this restless body. I'll muster up the guts to get up or waste the day and lose your money. I've got a lot to say but never one to take your time away. I don't wanna be a nuisance. I'm just too kind for that. I've been so scared so I'm running far from resolve and the ones that help to pry me from bed every morning- hiding away in his tomb. Take me. Break me. Disregard these thoughts and fill my head with everything that made this worth it. So how exactly does one wake up to a world that takes from the honest, hard-working descent? Was born into a home of hardship, forever independent. Why can't I feel anything anymore? I'm not the person I was. Those days I felt so sure. I've been so scared so I'm running far from resolve and the ones that help to pry me from bed every morning- hiding away in his tomb. Take me. Break me. Disregard these thoughts and fill my head with everything that made this worth it. So I can learn to feel again. Help me get the guts to learn again. Leave home to go see the country. Leave home and you're sharing your body. Come home from seeing the country. Come home to a house filled with nothing. Stay home from seeing the country. Stay home cause I'm scared to be leaving. Now I feel myself going crazy. 20 years old with only these songs to save me. Bend my bones until they break so you can have all you can take from me. I'll still have my voice and you'll be playing games. Out on your courts still playing games. I've been so scared so I'm running far from resolve and the ones that help to pry me from bed every morning- hiding away in his tomb. Take me. Break me. Disregard these thoughts and fill my head with everything that made this worth it. So I can learn to feel again. Help me get the guts to learn again.
3.
Relapse 04:06
I have relapsed in regards to what you're calling this. You said to wanted to take it places that I didn't. And I can tell by now you need to be alone; Left to your own devices and a better pose. Look at my faults and pretend I haven't thought where you've been While you still claim to be my best friend Well then, show them Suppress me as you fucking please Cause I would break for what you need; Some time and space put in between Now are you listening to yourself? Don't cut me out as a way to relate to all the friends that you've made at your home that's away. I get it, at least I'll tell myself that. You have the option to take it if you want it. If, in fact, you even want this for yourself now. Come home. Just tell me what you want and if this is worth my time and all the spaces I saved you to reside in. I have relapsed in regards to what you're calling this. You said you've missed my face and the way it only shows the boy you then. Oh, where will we ever take this? Suppress me as you fucking please Cause I would break for what you need; Some time and space put in between Now are you listening to yourself? Don't cut me out as a way to relate to all the friends that you've made at your home that's away.
4.
Hourglass 04:46
Do you know this fucked up situation I put myself in? I'm sorry it took so long but you know I'm coming home. Winter's coming. It's getting cold. Time slips by- another week has passed but you know I'm coming home. I'm far away and it's been like this for days but I know I'll be okay in this hourglass I reside in- need you to break it to let the light in. Do you know this fucked up situation I put myself in? I'm sorry it took so long but you know I'm coming home. I miss the way you felt and those nights we'd drive around without a place to go. We just knew we weren't alone but now I'm alone. The days feel longer as I long for you. I got away to combat the distance with time. Now I'm running right back to the place that's the same since I've left. Still far away and it's been like this for days but I know I'll be okay in this hourglass I reside in- need you to break it to let the light in. The distance is daunting. These long drives are keeping me from sleeping. The dashboard, it shakes but doesn't slow our pace. I can't believe that I am still away. I'll play the hand I'm dealt and keep my head on straight.
5.
Exoneration 04:12
The van was driven off the side of the road. It's in so many fucking pieces. Now I know what responsibility means to me. I fell asleep but there's a reason we're not dead yet. Life is more appealing to me. I can front the pain that's stricken me, And all that this is telling me is I'm weak. I wasn't much to protect but I guess I was given the chance to make sure the most of all the time I have left I spend in respect to the life that I strive to create. Take away pain with sedation. Always searching for distractions. All the thoughts are stuck in my head, And I can never accept exoneration. If this was some sort of sign to change my ways of living life in the past, then it's forgotten. God, he thought my life was worth it. Or maybe I was spared because of somebody else in the van. I was never the one to rest my faith in the force of some source above that caused creation. And karma seemed too far-fetched to believe in, but I'm fucking lucky to be breathing.
6.
Float Away 04:52
It's complicated- the lives we lead, the things we believe in. Will we ever know what's right when our confidence and common sense are fed with lies? I know through all of it I'll be okay- despite miscommunication. I know through all of this we'll be okay. I wanna float away from here. I'm begging for release to flee to anywhere because we're so fucked up and no one cares. This room's so small. Can you still here? I wanna go away, float away, leave. I'm complicated- the life I lead and the people who leave it. Will I ever see you again? Just a message in a bottle that won't reach the sand. But I know through all of it I'm here to stay- despite the lies and deception. You know through all of this we'll be okay. Complicate the meaning. My words lost all feeling. Inside out. Turned around.
7.
Stranger 03:23
I can't help but press you for some honesty. The lust for composure has awoken me from grinding my teeth against my head again. We're losing all sight to the days when all of our patience gives. I plead, absolve the weight that costs create in stealth. Because you can't lose love when it all pans out. It doesn't change a thing. No, it doesn't change a thing. All the false acclaims of the heights you'd reach; write them all off to the faults in me. You're just a stranger, you know nothing. I can't help but guess that you're appalled to see that I won't comply to an apology. Bring me your debts and feel the depth of imperfection. Lessons learned but not forgiven. Recall the taste you lost inside my mouth. You know I can't solve your problems so this all pans out. It'll never change a thing. It'll never change a thing. All the false acclaims of the heights you'd reach; write them all off to the faults in me. You're just a stranger, you know nothing. Is it my indifference or do you look that much different? All the thoughts I fought to fray Have gone to songs meant to relate So sing along to find your place You're in the room but where's your face? All the false acclaims of the heights you'd reach; write them all off to the faults in me. You're just a stranger, you know nothing.
8.
A young man and a woman moved across sea to start a new life and a family. He built this fuckin city with his two bare hands. The woman stayed at home. She did all she could for them. I'll break ground like you did. All I need is a chance. I'll make something of this. I promise. I won't let you down. I'll take something from it and show them. I want you to be proud. Thanks for all the things you did- all the sacrifices made. I know we never met but there's still one thing that I want to say: Thanks for paving the way for me. The groundwork's been laid and I'm so afraid of what's to come but who's to say what's right or wrong anyway? I'll face my fears head-on just like the man I never met, the man who I heard was so strong. I'll take this fuckin city on with two bare hands. Won't need any help because I've got my friends and a chance. I finally found a chance.

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released November 25, 2016

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Homesafe Chicago, Illinois

Ryan Rumchaks
Vocals, Guitars

Tyler Albertson
Vocals, Bass

Eman Duran
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